January 23, 2013

LAST BLOG - Wednesday, January 23, 2013

LAST BLOG

OKAY, THE JIG’S UP!

For the last month or so, I was happy to know there were three things that were working – I could still walk, still type and still talk.  Well, the walking is gone – my energy level is so bad that I can only be dragged around – so I am bed-ridden now.

Since I went to St. Mary’s Hospital on January 10th,  I suffered a burst tumor on my lung, was diagnosed with diabetes, had a collapsed lung,  my angina reared its ugly head and I’m now having trouble typing, so I’m in the process of losing the second last thing. Unfortunately this will have to be my last blog.

I’m in Louise Marshall Hospital in Mount Forest, getting assessed by CCAC and waiting to go home for however long I have left.  Unfortunately I am fatal and in a hospice situation.  Because of the Central Nervous System Lymphoma, I don’t know how long my mind is going to last before it goes “back to the main street of India”.

I had a lot of fun with this blog, especially with Munching Myrtle – she was a hoot!  Glad you enjoyed her.  Thanks for putting up with all my silly stories about her.

I would like each of you to do me a favour:
·         GET OVER YOURSELF
·         Get your nose out of your video game or your IPhone
·         Inspire someone
·         Say something positive to a total stranger
·         Instead of complaining about something to a company, call when something good happens to you or your bill - they will be shocked!
·         Volunteer anywhere – offer your services even if it’s once a day, once a week, once a month or once a year delivering for the Food Bank.
·         Smile at a total stranger
·         Offer to help someone, anyone
·         Make someone feel good by telling them a colour makes them sparkle or look especially good that day – they will remember that compliment the next time they wear that scarf, coat, etc.
·         Learn to appreciate life – look around you – watch the sky, appreciate the flowers, the landscape and the beautiful country we live in
·         Appreciate your partner – thank him/her every single day for being in your life
·         Respect and love him/her with all your might
·         Talk to God every day – thank him for the privilege of being here on earth – you don’t have to pray per se – just talk directly to him – that’s praying.
·         Ask God to  direct you, he knows what you need.
·         Hug your children – when they enter a room, look them in the eye, smile and let them know you are happy they are in your life
·         GET OVER YOURSELF!

I  thank ALL of you for the privilege and honor of knowing you.
xox

26 comments:

  1. Dianne, I have prayed long and hard that there would be a cure or remission for you..What can one say at a time like this. You are one hell of a person, always a smile on your face when we would get together and your laugh so infectious. I will treasure our friendship and what you have taught me over the time of your blog...know that we will still keep you in our thoughts and prayers now and always....

    Love Trish & Larry

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  2. Thanks for the blog Dianne and thanks for the privilege of knowing you.... thinking of you both... i have always valued our friendship.

    John

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  3. Thanks for sharing your journey. We enjoyed your updates and stories. You will live on in our memories. Thank you for being a friend, and thank you for your words of wisdom to give us pause to think and reflect and be thankful for our privileges, that we sometimes take for granted. God bless you Dianne.
    Dennis and Kathy K. Waterloo

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  4. Thanks for sharing your journey. We enjoyed your updates and stories. You will live on in our memories. Thank you for being a friend, and thank you for your words of wisdom to give us pause to think and reflect and be thankful for our privileges, that we sometimes take for granted. God bless you Dianne.
    Dennis and Kathy K. Waterloo

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  5. Hi Di.
    This is the blog I did not want to read, We love you so much, Will always remember your strengh. Our prayers are with you both.Love Rose and Wayne xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxo

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  6. Hi Dianne: I am just so lost for words - and the tears will not let me see what I am typing - I know God will look after you!
    Till we meet again.....Love You.....Heather

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  7. Thanks for being a friend, sharing your journey and your words of wisdom. You are one awesome person. Love and prayers to you both.
    Larry and Jackie

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  8. Hi Dianne: I replied to your blog in an e-mail,
    Love and prayers to you always.
    Karen

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  9. Hi, I too can only reply privately. I Love you for the lovely lady you are and will miss your blogs immensely. You are "One Of A Kind" and so is "Munching Myrtle". Love and Hugs to you and your wonderful man. xoxox Linda and Mike

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  10. Dianne: We did not want this to end. You are one strong person.
    You are definitely in God's hands. He will take care of such a special kind and thoughtful person like you.

    Love you

    Bill Mary and family

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  11. Dianne, you are an amazing woman with such a terrific heart. Suffice it to say, that is why God wants you there with him for his own intentions now that things are not so good for you here. Thank you for all your kind words. You are in my prayers, as is Bob. You are cherished and loved by many people whose lives you have only enrichened by knowing you and whom will keep you in their memories of laughs and happy moments always. I wish for you, the time could have been longer but it is never long enough for someone who has had such a full life.. So today I will say goodbye, because I still can.. and because its the only way I can come to accept this deal you have been dealt. I call misdeal. Love you, Krissy

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  12. Oh Dianne...Ken and I both read your last blog this morning before we went for our morning walk. Needless to say it was a quiet walk as we contemplated your news. You have been incredibly strong & courageous in the face of all the challenges and indignities you have had to endure during your illness. Your amazing ability to maintain a wonderful sense of humour has been just incredible. You have a wonderfully loving spirit which brings out the best in other people. Thank you for your friendship and your ability to see the goodness that is there in all of us. Thank you for sharing your insights and your words of wisdom. Thank you for being such an inspiration.

    Ken and Laura

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  13. Dianne, you are one of a kind!!! I thank God that I met you and B0b at Rocky Park and enjoyed your company for a few years. I totally agree with all your pointers you have given us about enjoying and loving life. Take care and I'm positive we will meet again in a better place. Mary Ellen and Vic Aitken

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  14. To our dear dear Dianne, we are so sorry to read your news. Please don't give up. Still talking to God every day like you asked us to and I promise that we will try everyday to do what you have asked us to, just for you. Just know how much you are loved by sooooooo many people. You have always been the most postive person in our life, thank you for being you. With love and hugs, Dar and Gary

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  15. Dianne after knowing someone for 60 some years with the last few being extra hard when you know someone is hurting and you can't make it go away, just trying to be as positive as you have been all along. I guess God knew that he needed a positive, caring person to help him but it was extra hard to read that last blog. Glad I got in to see you yesterday and I will keep praying until we meet again. With our love, Marlene and Grant

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  16. Dianne, I wish I could turn back the clock! Where am I going to take my driftwood findings from Rocky Park now? I was told by a friend one time that I was an angel! No laughing! I am sitting on your shoulder watching over you. Your last blog you wrote, has made me appreciate even more how important the things are around us, that most of us take for granted in our busy lifestyles! The phrase, stop and smell the roses, are we really that busy we forget what is really important in life? Wow, what a mistake! I am going to stop and have a shooter! Not Jack...Bob! One for you and one for me, my friend! Cheers!
    Ken/Chris Paul

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  17. Dear aunt Dianne. I am very lucky to have called you aunt all these years and my sister/mom and I are very great full with how you have welcomed us Into the Haffner family. You are an Inspiration to all of those you have met and we will always remember you and will continue to pray for you. We love you and wish your family and Uncle Bob all the best
    Xo Marianne Haffner

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  18. Dianne, I am at Karen's now reading this last blog, and my tears are blocking out what I am typing. I've only got to really know your kindness and jokes and "sick" humor over the past few years, and I am so greatful for that. What a wonderful cousin you are!
    It would have been so nice to see you again, but I will keep you
    in my memory how you have always been. You have put up the fight of your life without complaints or gripes so God has to have a special place picked out for you. I will think of you often as I always have done, except now it will be more like a guardian angel watching
    over all of us down here. I'm sure Bob will be taken well care of
    so don't worry about him, he has so many new friends because of you.
    I wish my sister would have shared you and your antics a lot sooner.
    John and I think of you often and I'm sure your name will come up in ours and many others conversations for a long to come. I hope that if I ever get dealt the trials in life of what you have gone through that I will be able to maintain the sense of humor, positive attitude, approach to life and even half the dignity as you have shown us all. It has been our greatest gift to have you in our lives. May God bless both you and Bob.
    All our love,
    XOXOXOXOXOXOXO John and Donna P. (the Woodstockers).

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  19. Aunt Dianne - I don't believe that I have ever found myself in a position where I have had to say goodbye all the while knowing that it will be a final goodbye. What does someone say?
    Truthfully, it makes me mad that you are being taken so soon. You are such a beautiful, caring and outgoing woman. I feel cheated that I have only had the priviledge of knowing you for such a short time. Obviously there will be many of us who are in denial that the time has come - we all prayed and hoped for the best.
    However, as you have taught us through your journey, acceptance is the first step in dealing with all the emotions that we are confronted with.
    Please know that both George and I feel truly blessed to have had you in our lives. It meant the world to us that you were able to share in our special day at our wedding - you kindness and words of wisdom will never be forgotten.
    We will continue to pray for you, uncle Bob and your family, that you may find comfort in your family and friends during this time. The time that I have known you for may have been brief, but please know that I will never forget you - you have made an impression on me and I will always remember you.
    Until we meet again - Crystal & George Haffner

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  20. My dearest Dianne.. I love you.. I wish things werent the way they are..and Im still praying and hoping for a miracle.
    Thanks for all your love, care, laughs, chats, wonderful lunches and for being a wonderful mother in law and friend. I wish we could have spent more time together. Your a very special person who I cherish. Liz xoxo

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  21. Dianne, how you've done it..I have no idea!! The will and courage you have had to fight everything you've been through has truly been motivational and inspiring! It reminds us life is only a flicker and to cherish the moments we have together. Replace the moments of pain with the times that brought you joy and happiness. The memories of you will forever be etched within us and you will be forever missed. xoxo Stephanie Duncan

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  22. Dianne, we loved reading your blog and the way you have handled all of this is amazing. You are an inspiration to so many people. God bless you and your family.
    Shirley & Gary Guisto

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  23. Dear Dianne and Bob,

    We have been blessed to have you as a friend. Few people in our lives are what we call true friends. Even though we did not see each other often enough, when we did it was magical. Pat and I have always felt a real and honest kinship with you. Dianne, you will always be an inspiration to us, with your spirit and fight, humour and honesty. Your love for each other has also been an inspiration. Few of us are lucky enough to have a soulmate.

    You will forever be in our thoughts. May god bless you both !

    Ken & Pat Cameron

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  24. Fly with angel's wings, as you my friend are one.

    Marie

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  25. I find myself reading this last blog everyday...missing you so much Dianne...love you. Trish

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